| I'm a happy and loving person...
I enter into a relationship, but my eyes are closed. There are
problems between us and we don't see eye to eye. I get hurt....I
ask for them to stop, but they don't. I feel helpless and believe
it isn't my fault: or is it? I'm confused, and somehow in the confusion
I go somewhere to think. I don't like what I see. I'm not happy
with the relationship and I'm not a very happy person.
I enter back into the same relationship. I feel that I have no choice.
My eyes are now half open. There are problems. We don't see eye
to eye....I get hurt. Again I ask them to stop, but they don't...I
can't believe this is happening to me. It still isn't my fault,
or is it? I go somewhere to heal myself. I don't like what I see.
I'm not happy with the relationship and I'm not a very happy person.
I enter back into the same relationship. I still feel that I have
no choice. This time I inform the other person the consequences
if they ever again attempt to hurt me. My eyes are almost wide open,
but not quite. There are problems. We don't see eye to eye... I
don't like what I see. This time instead of getting hurt, I protect
myself and immediately leave. I'm still not happy with the relationship
and I'm not a very happy person.
I enter into a new relationship. This time with myself. My eyes
are wide open. I see the truth, and the truth sets me free. Being
free gives me the power of choice. I can go through life with my
eyes closed and struggle in the dark, or I can keep them open and
grow in the light. I choose to keep them open, though on occasion,
the light may blind me and I have to momentarily close them, letting
them fill with tears.
I now decide who I allow to come into, and to stay, in my life.
I embrace and cherish those that genuinely love and care about me
and let go of those who directly or indirectly attempt to harm,
use, or abuse me. Never again will I allow anyone to deny me my
right to be a happy and loving person.
From this moment on, it is a privilege and not a right, for another
person to be in my presence. In all aspects of my life I keep that
which does not harm me and let go of that which does. In my own
way I still humanly love the person that hurt me, but from a safe
and healthy distance.
Once again I’m a happy and loving person.
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